Hello friends,
As I write this, I’m sifting through stories of women in prison.
I’m holding stories, poems, songs, and memories in my hands.
Each week when we meet forgiveness always comes up. The big F word. The word we, at least I, sometimes forget how to practice. And forgiveness really is a practice. Years ago I thought I had learnt how to do it, but it seems to be one of those lessons that keeps returning to me. And gawd, it takes time and healing and a whole lot of patience, but we each are worthy of receiving it and offering it.
Imagine sitting in a circle with 30 female inmates, some who are serving life sentences, some who never will hold their loved ones on the outside again. Some who say they are not guilty for what they are in for. Now imagine hearing some of yourself with them, the things you have said that you are not proud of. The people you know in your life who have judged you, blamed you, or left you.
Imagine allowing yourself to be vulnerable in this setting.
Some of the women share a lot about what it’s like to be living on the inside, to find a home in a cell. Some talk very little, but feel a lot. Some of them share by dancing, writing, or singing. I practice sharing with them, loving them, and hearing them. I practice seeing them, not for how they have been labelled, but for who they are when sitting in front of me. It’s not always easy, but I believe in forgiveness, and I believe that we are all deserving of it.
In just a few days these women will stand in front of a packed audience of inmates and share their stories, songs, dances, skits, and letters. They are scared, excited, and anxious. Some of them have been working with me since February preparing for this moment, some of them have just started taking my class. Some of the women are just learning to make and hold eye contact. Some of them are angry and some are deeply saddened.
But for this sharing of themselves so publicly, they are worried about being judged, about forgetting how the dance goes, or which aisle to come in from.
The very next day they will stand in front of a public audience of their family and friends, and many strangers and share the same stories a second night in a row. Three inmates will be given permission to move from the minimum facility into the medium facility (for just one performance) to perform with our class that they were once apart of before being moved.
One of the women is in the hole and will be unable to participate in this final piece.
So we learn to listen together, to make adjustments, to know that things aren’t always fair, and we practice finding forgiveness for the way in which we thought things would be.
A week from now we will gather for a celebration of food and drinks to recap all the many months and moments we have been witness to each others growth, change, healing and stories. We often come back to forgiveness, how people might come to see us or know us if they could find that in themselves.
In these women, I recognize myself. Mistakes from my past, judgement I’ve carried or released on someone unfairly. In recognizing their humanity, I see my own. Much of it is connected to moving past what we have done to actually SEE who we are and where we are. We can only do that when we drop our egos, find forgiveness, and choose to seek connection. Weekly, in my classes, I am gifted with a sense of how our stories can and will save us if we continue to allow ourselves to be changed by them.
Daily Practice-
Coffee and solitude. I’m a total morning person, and a pretend night owl. If I’m working on stage at night, I have to drink a half a cup of coffee to keep me going. I love my 5am wake up calls, watching the sky change as morning arrives. Usually I’m out running with our puppy, Lucca. Then home around dawn to make my coffee in the quiet darkness of our home. I also love to do this on vacation too. If you have ever traveled with me you know this to be true. So many people have teased me about this, but it’s what I love.
Often I will sit with my cup of coffee on my meditation cushion or even at our kitchen bench. Sometimes I journal, sometimes I close my eyes and savor the first few sips of coffee, other times I practice nadi shodhana (an alternate nostril breathing technique). If I get 5 mins or more of solitude like this, first thing in the morning, I’m a happy camper. It sets the tone for the rest of my day, gives me more patience, and reminds me of the immense amount of gratitude I have for my life.
Monthly Oil Blends-
Essential oils have been a big part of my life since my teenage years when my step mother would pick different plants and herbs and drink them as tea or apply them as salves to various cuts or bites on my body. Medicinally, they hold sacred healing properties that can be used for so many ailments. Currently, I have been using most of my oils aromatically. My current favorite blend is Siberian Fir and Wild Orange, 4-6 drops of each in a diffuser for the ultimate calming, warming, grounding smell. 
You can order both of these from me here for a discount: 
Siberian Fir: here
Wild Orange: here

Join me for some time this year to recharge, reset, and move both inwards and outwards. I create space for participants to both be apart of a community, and also hold space for individuals to have alone time. We need socialization, but we also need stillness in order to blossom.
 Room for a few more to join me and Karen Pride in February for our weekend retreat (3rd year!) this time right here on the Oregon Coast.
Or hop on a plane and meet me in Italy with Julie Jeske for a week of goodness in September. This week is full of pleasure and presence from beginning to end with meals, vineyards, walks, adventures, lively discussions, cooking classes, and sunrise yoga.
In October join me on the east coast for a nourishing weekend with Atieno Bird. 
More details below about all of these, and on my web page.
If you don’t know me personally, you can expect to laugh a lot, share stories from you life, create vision for the future, eat really, really well, and I probably will invite you on some early morning runs:) Come play, come discover with me, and meet yourself where you are at. We will learn and love together on this wild mess of life. Please reach out directly if you have questions about any of my retreat offerings, I personally respond to all inquiries.
Community Yoga Classes at the Portland Playhouse are back in the new year! Classes are $10 for a drop in, and free to artists currently working at the Playhouse.These classes support the Education programs at Portland Playhouse, so feel good and give back to our community at the same time.
No one will be turned away for lack of funds or experience, classes are open to all levels- yoga, music, meditation, rest, and essential oils. Bring your own mat, please. Mark your calendars and come play, move, and breathe together. Bring a friend and walk to coffee with us afterwards.
My hope is that these classes will build community, connection, and balance in our lives. Please help spread the word to your family and friends! Then go for coffee or brunch after class, or the farmers market just two blocks away.
Community Yoga on Saturday and Sunday mornings 9-10:30am
$10 suggested donation fee. No one turned away.
Saturday January 4
Sunday January 12
Sunday February 2
Sunday February 9
Saturday February 22
Sunday March 1
Sunday March 8
Saturday March 14
2020 is going to be a great year. For me, it’s full of travel plans, time with loved ones, and unknown adventure yet to be had. I’m looking forward to more global connections, small community, performing in a play or two, and dreaming with my family.
May you continue to practice forgiveness in your relationships, and in your heart for those that have left us. Forgiveness goes along way, and ultimately brings us closer to love. And really, love is what it’s all about, isn’t it?
Grateful for your continued presence here,
Wild at Heart
Co-led with Karen Pride
February 14th-17, 2020
Arch Cape, OR

Join your Wild at Heart co-leaders Nikki and Karen for a creative weekend built to ignite the senses, stir up your passions, and encourage community. This is the 3rd year in a row we have created a weekend together. We enjoy creating community, sharing our passions, and beautifying our world with food, movement, conversation, and art making practices.

Book your spot!
*Limited to 14 women*
Vibrant Living
Co-led with Julie Jeske
September 5th-12th, 2020
Lucca, Italy

A week in Lucca, Italy with Julie Jeske and Nikki with daily yoga, deep conversations, delicious food and day excursions.

Join us here!
Limited to 18 women*
Creator's Retreat: Embracing the Soul
With Atieno Bird
October 23-26, 2020

There are many times when life requires active  yang energy of us: "reflect, choose, be intentional, create, own the authorship of your life and make the changes you need!" This retreat will focus on those more receptive  yin tasks that are not really tasks: letting the soul be who it is, accept love and healing, feel what it feels, grieve its losses, and reveal a way when it is ready. Where can you let go of pressuring yourself and instead ...allow? I can't help but mention that the topic has already begun - selecting Chestertown took a lot of yin processing; the way emerged on its own timing.

Reserve your spot here!
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